Chemistry of Love.....

After all these years.....

A2 exam now....
Left 3 papers....
I am quite scared now,,,
as I dont think i
did well for the past 3 papers....
I dont even work as hard as last time.,..
It was like....
I become lazy & no more determination,,,
I am so scared now...
I scared
this....
my laziness....
will affect my studies...
now and in future....
becoming a doctor...
They said...
It's very hard
to become a doctor....
Everyday MUST study....
But i scared...
I cant archive that high...
I lost my faith....
I lost my confidence....
I lost my determination...
I lost every good habits....

I get screwed up...
No body can help me...
ONLY me myself...
can bring me out of these...

I know....
I dont like the feeling
of being a loser...
But...
This kind of thinking no longer
works on me.,.,.
It didnt motivate me like last time....
I am lost....
Confused,....
which decision should i make...
which road should i take...
what should i do....
and what should i dont...

God....
Please show me the way somehow...
I am losing my faith...
I really wish to become
a doctor,
but my laziness.,..
it just ruined me...
How can I study everyday
like those my friends....
How can i believe again....
That I can endure all these?
How can I do it again...
win the race...
succeed in every challenges...
without losing a breath...
leaving no mercy for the word 'Give Up'...
How ....
God... please
please show me how....
I want to be a better person...
When could i just wake up
from all these nightmares?
Just show me how to do it....


Harry

【我不願讓你一個人】

今天 25/2 是一位在我生命中，在我青春里，留下深刻印象的女生的生日。
中三那年，因为与她同班，开始了我们的那些年。
可说是单恋吧。
每天在班上，做些事情来引她注目。
曾经向她告白两次，但被拒绝了。
每年，她的生日，都会花了一年存下来的零用钱，买个礼物给她。
但送她礼物，好想理所当然的事。
去年，她向我说，她以有男友了。
我快崩溃了，但我想，她的初恋，一定会长久吧!
她也没让我看过她的那王子。
今年的情人节，十分好奇， 怎么她以我几位单身的朋友庆祝。
我也不想问她。她在上星期开始了当牙医的学习深涯，将要到澳洲去了。
我呢，不久应该要到印度去了
。我与她的故事，该写上了完美的句号吧。
只希望，她能比我还幸福，还开心!
今年生日，我没办法送她礼物，但还是真心祝福她。


她说过，她还蛮喜欢这首歌的，就现给她吧!

生日快乐 W D !

Finally...

I turn 18 ady....

Well...

Seems like it's just

a term....

Nothing much changed...
Still me....

a wimpy teen...

hahaahhah

I have a wish...

That I am able to enter IMU one day....

Not USM please.... But dad wanna send me to USM after A-level...

God... please help me....

I dare not to voice out...

Dad said he couldnt afford to pay me for those well known medical schools...

But....

If I managed to enter....

Future will be bright honestly...

I believed that~~~~


Harry